Will be leaving for Iloilo tomorrow. We will be having our midyear seminar there. Hay. Hope I make through this one. Buti pa si Row, sa Hongkong pupunta. Oh well... I hope I can decide where to go for my compensatory leave.

fyi lang. hindi ako ang nagsulat nun. can relate lang. forward siya sa e-mail.

hay... the story of my life right now. hay.

minsan badtrip magmahal...
iwasan mo, ikaw din un masasaktan...
sundan mo,ikaw din iiyak...
bigay mo lahat kulang pa rin...
nagpakatanga ka na,gagaguhin ka pa...
minsan hintay ka nang hintay,di mo alam...iniwan ka na pala.

minsan na akong nagmahal...
minsan na akong nasaktan...
minsan na rin nagpakatanga dahil minsan 'minahal kita'.
hahayaan ko pa bang maulit?
bakit hindi?
eh,minsan lang akong naging masaya nang mahalin kita...

di ba masakit pag-iniwan ka?
di ba masakit pag niloko ka?
di ba masakit pag pinaasa ka?
pero di ba mas masakit pag pinaniwala ka na mahal ka nya,
kahit may mahal na sya iba...

nagmahal ka na ba?
pero inakala mong mali kaya tinago mo na lang?
nasaktan ka na dahil alam mong mahal mo sya pero di mo maipakita?
nasubukan mo na bang magsisi na dapat sana
ay sayo sya kung ipinadama mo lang sana...

takot ako mawala ka...di ko alam kung bakit?
di sa hindi ako mabubuhay nang wala ka...kundi takot akong
dumating un panahon na mahal pa rin kita...kahit wala ka na...

pag nawala ako, siguro di un kawalan syo...
di yun makakaepekto sayo, pero gusto ko lang malaman mo, hapi
ako...
bakit?
kasi kahit minsan sa buhay ko, nakilala ko un isang katulad mo...

magmahal?
marunong ako nun!
un tipo bang tanga ka na, sige pa rin kasi mahal mo siyang
talaga...
pero sa bandang huli... itatanong mo...
tanga ba talaga ako?
o mahal ko lang talaga siya...

mahirap makipaglaban sa bagay na alam mong talo ka...
wala kang magagawa kundi hayaan mo na lang tumahimik hanggang
ilayo niya
siya sayo ang taong pinakamamahal mo, dun mo maiisip na sana
pinaglaban ko siya...

minsan natuto kang magmahal...
minsan naranasn mong masaktan...
minsan natuto kang umasa...
kasi minsan minahal mo siya ng lubusan...

Feeling awfully tired.
I think it is the result of my how many nights of studying for my first exam in five years.
Fortunately, it seemed to be easy enough for me to pass.
But I have been pretty cautious of easy exams. They tend to be deceiving.
I just hope I get that dos for this sem.
Next sem, LOA ako.

Friday's Five.

1. How many TVs do you have in your home?
Three. Two big ones and one small one. One in my mom's room. One in the living room. The smallest one is in my bro's room which is used for his X-box.

2. On average, how much TV do you watch in a week?
A lot. Two hours in the morning and 4-5 hours at night.

3. Do you feel that television is bad for young children?
Depends on what they watch. EduTV is good. Prime time needs parental guidance.

4. What TV shows do you absolutely HAVE to watch, and if you miss them, you're heartbroken?
Ally McBeal
Tabing Ilog
Ang jologs, di ba? Hehehe!

5. If you had the power to create your own television network, what would your line-up look like?
We did an activity like this for broadcom. But I won't share it because I'm planning to create my programs eventually. Somebody might pirate the idea. Hehehe!

Just finished reading through the rowster's blog and I got a bit irritated by one letter she received from the e-mail about being a "true Atenean".

Well, the way he wrote the letter he implies that no one except Atenistas from grade school are true Ateneans. And no one except those who parade their jackets around the mall are true Ateneans. Well, excuse me.

The day we won the Championships, I was really ecstatic and elated we won. I almost broke our relatively new flat screen from touching the TV a lot. I wanted to give the players a virtual hug. Since I was sick, I was not able to follow to Ateneo to celebrate in a holy manner our victory. Instead, I rushed up to my La Sallite brother's room (thanks, Kuya!) to use his internet to e-mail my friends abroad. Luckily, one of my friends was on line and was able to witness the game through webcast.

We chatted about our victory, how great the players are, how wonderful the game was played, and even how kawawa Adonis Sta. Maria was for being "almost mauled" every game. In the middle of our conversation, we reminisced the good old college days, the great teachers and the not-so great ones we had. The whole conversation steered to how great it was to be an Atenean because we get to "see" a lot of things about the world, and being given the privelege and also the responsibility to do something about it. Lucky and blessed -- that is how we felt about being Atenean. For being gifted with so many learnings and for having enough social conscience without having to actually go to the streets and rally. And until now, I feel that. Everydayof my life, I thank my parents for working so hard just to keep me in the Ateneo (we really couldn't afford the tuition.)

In the end, we realized that the basketball championship was a bonus to the school's name.

Being an Atenean is more than that. It's just sad how people just feel being Atenista when there is glory to be bragged about. It's sad that it had to take that guy fourteen years to experience the joy of being one.

Championships or not, I will parade my Ateneo shirt. And more so, my Ateneo pride. Because I have survived my four years with hard work and lots of fun and graduated with my head high knowing that my school has taught me a lot of things, definitely teaching me more than basketball is the be all and end all of a university's name.

The fishing survey!
Please answer in comments.

01. When did we meet?
02. How did we meet?
03. Have we ever met in person?
04. Have we ever talked on the phone?
05. Have you ever seen me cry?
06. Have you ever seen me dance?
07. Describe me using three or less words.
08. If you could spend a day with me, what would we do?
09. Have we ever gotten in a fight?
10. Have you ever dreamt of me? If so, tell me about it.
11. If you could give me a present, what would it be?
12. Would you hug me?
13. Would you kiss me?
14. What do you REALLY think of me?
15. Do you trust me?
16. Do you know something about me that no one else knows?
17. Do you even know how old I am (without looking at my LJ profile! Don't cheat!)?
18. Anything you wanted to tell me but never got a chance to?

Friday's Five

1. If you could only choose 1 cd to ever listen to again, what would it be?
Tough one. The Best of Referendum R & B so I could just keep on dancing.

2. If you could only choose 2 movies to watch ever again, what would they be?
Ten things I hate about you. Amelie. Feel-good movies top my list.

3. If you could only choose 3 books to read ever again, what would they be?
The Prophet by Kahlil Gibran
The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho
The Little Prince by Antoine de St. Exupery

4. If you could only choose 4 things to eat or drink ever again, what would they be?
Kare-kare, kalamansi juice, curried or ginataang crabs, rice. I think I'll die from too much cholesterol if tose are all I get to eat.

5. If you could only choose 5 people to ever be/talk/associate/whatever with ever again, who would they be?
This is really tough. I have the answers in my mind. I'll just keep it there.

Well, my joy and ecstacy from winning the championship has not died down. The moment I got from the office, Ray and I shared happy glances and hugged. Hehehe! And she was nice enough to get me some banners, a penant and two ballons from the game. Yey. I shall post it once I get to my new room in Las Piñas.

Trivia: Larry Fonacier was sick pala on the day of the game. Paano pa kaya kung wala siyang sakit.

I checked the pictures of the game. There was a nice picture of Wesley, which I won't share kasi he's mine. Hehehe! Just kidding. Tamad lang ako mag-post.

The pinoycentral account of last night's game cannot be found. Maybe they're redoing it, together with some pictures. That I want to see.

Anyway, here's an another account of the game. It has good pictures of Wesley, my boy. :)

This one is Inquirer's report for today's news.
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Can I just say that the reason why I am so proud of the team was that they played cohesively. There was no single person who stood out in the game. Yun.

Another story on the championship.

so okay, i haven't calmed down.
forgive me, i'm not used to winning.

CHAMPION

kulit ko.
saya kasi, eh.
:)
:)
:)

we deprived them of their sweep.
we deprived them of their 5-peat.

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still, four championships ain't no joke.
manalo played a mean game din naman.
it's just...
we played damn better.
hehehe!
forgive me.
this is just a moment of triumph... of adrenaline rush.

i'll be nicer in a few moments.
:)
:)
:)

okay, i bungled up that entry. sheesh. in the excitement, i lost it. eng-eng.
basta!
CHAMPION!
CHAMPION!
ATENEO DE MANILA UNIVERSITY.
2002 UAAP CHAMPIONS.
MEN'S BASKETBALL (SR.)
I know I'm forgetting to rejoice for the other UAAP teams, but I can't help it.

Check out the Inquirer's account of the game just less than an hour after.

CHAMPION

This is a wonderful moment for me and all the Ateneans in the world!
After fourteen years of a drough, Ateneo finally wins the UAAP Championship! Oh my God! I'm so flustered, ecstatic, joyful... I'm lost for words!
posted by cross eyed bear at 5:41 AM

Thursday, October 03, 2002

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Friday's Five

1. What size shoe do you wear?
I range from 7 to 8. Big feet is in our genes.

2. How many pairs of shoes do you own?
I never really counted, somewhere between 7 to ten, i think.

3. What type of shoe do you prefer (boots, sneakers, pumps, etc.)?
I do prefer being barefoot but my mom hates that. When I go out I feel most comfortable with sneakers. But I do like wearing black boots when I'm feeling funky,

4. Describe your favorite pair of shoes. Why are they your favorite?
Well they're not mine. They're my sisters. Tretorns. My feet just fits into it. And it's soooo comfy!

5. What's the most you've spent on one pair of shoes?
From my own pocket, I think it was 900 pesos. My bro bought me my P1,200 boots and my P1,800 Reeboks. I'm not the type to spend on fashion. There are more important things for me to spend on. (Like that camera I bought for my sister... that was ouch on my pocket. Haven't gone out in the last three weeks because of that! Teehee!)

Thursday Threesome

What's at the end of your rainbow? What do you hope for in your life or wish for when you see a rainbow or blow out the candles on your birthday cake?

A job that I would love doing for the rest of my life. And I know that already. To do a mini-version of the PCIJ in Mindanao. I have details on the program that I would like to do, now I just need to make the move and find the money. Har!

I don't make wishes anymore. I just talk to God when I walk to Gate 3 (there's just no other time, I'm so pooped when I get home). What I always ask him (1) is to keep me and my family healthy and (2) to make me be the best Angie that I can be in his service, to constantly guide me with my life so I can do what he wants me to and (3) to love Him above all else because sometimes I have trouble doing that... a lot of times actually. So I pray for that a lot.

I think I'm going to get sick. I have a sore throat though the voice is still there. Plus I got wet in the rain walking from the clubhouse to the office. My eyes are feeling hot. And I'm feeling weak. I'm still in the office, but am on the way out. Still... I'm tempted to taxi home.

For the past five nights I have been staying up late reading my text books and researching for my topic. I have an idea how to write it already. Last night I even dreamt that I was typing my report. I'm dizzy.

I can't get sick! Well... I can get sick tomorrow but I have to get well by Saturday. It's the championships already. Waah!

Wednesday, October 02, 2002

Okay, I really am procrastinating. Anyway, for those who want to read a feel good blog, go three entries down. This entry is pure vanity and is definitely trying to get away from responsibility as long as i can.

But it was nice answering the questions though. :)

last...
-movie you rented: we don't rent anymore. my bro buys dvds
-movie you bought: my bro buys the stuff. he bought 40 days and 40 nights, blade 2 and this other b-movie.
-song you listened to: Cross my Heart by EBTG
-song that was stuck in your head: Didn't Know I was looking for love by EBTG
-song you've downloaded: as i lay me down by sophie b. hawkins
-cd you bought: jah... can't remember. definitely pirated, though. hihihi!
-cd you listened to: home movies of EBTG
-person you've called: bro
-person that's called you: bro
-tv show you've watched: ally mcbeal

do...
-you have a boyfriend/girlfriend: thankfully at this point, none
-you have a crush on someone: tons! a jesuit novice, a UAAP player, another jesuit novice from Indonesia, hugh jackman, heath ledger, james marsden, legolas...
-wish you could live somewhere else: yes
-you think about suicide: not anymore
-you believe in online dating: no
-others find you attractive: oh yeah... hahaha! some have stated their admiration. :)
-you want more piercings: not really
-you drink: want to! it's just i'm allergic
-you do drugs: no
-you like cleaning: hell, noh... well at times
-you like roller coasters: yes!
-you write in cursive or print: depends
-you carry a donor card: no

for or against...
-long distance relationships: against, it just won't work.
-using someone: against, people are not objects to be used
-suicide: against, look at three entries down for explanation
-killing people: against, everyone has the right to live
-teenage smoking: against
-doing drugs: illegal? yes
-premarital sex: am not entirely sure
-driving drunk: against, but i still ride in their cars
-gay/lesbian relationships: not entirely for, not entirely against... i really have no judgment.

favorite...
-food: dami! corn, mushrooms, green peas, green mangoes, salty stuff...
-song: as i lay me down, hands to heaven
-thing to do: travel
-thing to talk about: boys, where the youth is going now, movies, dreams...
-sports: track and field, i guess since i played for a year
-drinks: cold water, coke and lemonade
-clothes: anything comfy, usually baby tees
-movies: stand by me, malena, antonia's line, man in the moon (not the jim carrey one), the sandlot... dami!
-bands: the old eraserheads, smash mouth, parokya ni edgar... dami uli
-holiday: christmas
-cars: 4-wheel drives

have you...
-ever cried over a girl/boy: oo naman
-ever had sex: no
-ever lied to someone: a lot
-ever been in a fist fight: not sure... i usually kick
-ever been arrested: no

what...
-shampoo do you use: anything in the bathroom but preferably pantene
-perfume do you wear: don't use
-shoes do you wear: skechers, reeboks, rusty lopez, and some brandless stuff
-are you scared of: i recently discovered i'm afraid of jumping cliffs... but i still do... after ten minutes of staring in the water and prodding from the next person

number of...
-times i have had my heart broken: 3? this is questionable though
-hearts i have broken: 3 that i know of, but somehow i have a feeling there's more
-boys i have kissed: hahaha! 2 (right now though this is first time i actually want to kiss a guy i don't love and i haven't kissed him though and probably won't get to!)
-girls i have kissed: jah... none yet
-continents i have lived in: 1
-drugs i have taken illegally: zero
-people i would classify as true, could trust with my life friends: hard to tell, i have quite a few. definitely more than 5
-people i consider my enemies: i'm not sure if we still are... i have become indifferent
-cd's i own: more than ten less than 20
-scars on my body: i don't want to count
-things in my past i regret: zero, again refer three entries down

How I would love to live in Rivendell!

If I lived in Middle-Earth, it would be in: Lothlorien or Rivendell You prefer the tranquilty and peacefulness of nature and enjoy the milder seasons of the year. While you know it is necessary to keep in contact with other living beings, most of the time you enjoy the seclusion of an aesthetically pleasing, woodland environment. Take the "Where in Middle-Earth Would I Live?" Quiz by skepticism

Still... even with that positive thought, I feel extremely tired. But I have to work on my TMA (tutor marked assignment). Fortunately, I have been able to get some information from one of our partner institutions. Three nights to work on it. Can I do it? Har! We'll see. Then exams will be on the 19th. Meaning no gimmicks for me that week. Thank God, UAAP ends this week. It's been a tiring for some reason. For all the "controversy" the rowster have stirred with her e-mail, I guess. But I'm quite proud of my friend (of which other JVP's also laud!) for her insights and her courage (though she says, she did not expect the whole thing to grow this big) for saying all those things and facing the "consequences". That should also include M then for his own ideas and of course, his support for the rowster. Anyway, other than that... cheering takes out a lot of my energy. It does help burn calories though.

Hahaha! Sabog ang entry ko. Stream of consciousness ata.

Sleepy na ako. The coffee didn't help. Damn! And I'm procrastinating. Double damn.

While walking from my office to Katipunan Road, this thought just popped into my head:
"God must love us very much because even if we make mistakes, he gives us a whole lifetime ahead either to patch it up or start anew."

That thought will give me courage to take more risks and live life more. That moment was probably his gift to me. I just wish I know where to apply it at this moment. Hahaha!